Ch..ch..change for the better

I took the job. Starting October 1 I will be the groomer at the Cochrane Pet Services store. Their current groomer is retiring from grooming after being in the business for 30 yrs and she appproached me to fill her position. Its an incredible opportunity for me, and I‘m grateful she thought of me to replace her. I am very excited to be the “top“ groomer in town and only after being in the business for 6 years.

And after speaking with my new boss im excited about all the plans he has for a new grooming studio/shop. Over the next couple of years he plans on building a state of the art grooming shop complete with a self serve area for those wanting to tackle their own pets. I‘m also excited to be working regular hours, no more 60+ hr work weeks, no more 5 am wake up calls, evenings and weekend free, i can volunteer again, i could start going to the pool again, i can have a life.

This last week on taxi isnt going to be pleasant, as expected my boss was not pleased to put it lightly when i told him i was quitting. He didnt think it was fair for me to decide to quit without consulting him. Why the hell would i consult him? Theres no way he could match the deal they gave me at the pet store, and its a job that i went to school for. Its my life i get to decide who and where i work for. I always knew that my boss had a way of guilting you into things and making you feel like shit...its part of why I havent been feeling myself for the longest time but couldnt find a way to get out without having another job to go to. Hes a sneaky workplace bully...im glad to be moving on for my mental health. Who knows maybe I‘ll even end up quitting sooner if he gives me a hard time, cuz really now that i have a new job to go to these last 4 days Im only working cuz i didn‘t want to be a complete ass like some of our past employees and just up and quit.

Waiting...

My new possible job opportunity has me sitting on the edge of my seat. No word yet if its a done deal or not. I‘ll do some phoning around tonight to find out as i would start October 1, it wouldnt exactly give my current boss the 2 weeks notice that is usually expected, mind you he has had people just quit with no notice, I dont want to be one of those people though. I hate waiting knowing that this opportunity would be a huge deal for me career wise.

Keep Dreaming...

Talk about fate, coincidence, karma; I received a call this afternoon about an awesome job opportunity. It's all most what I've been hoping, waiting and dreaming for. Not exactly what I was refering to in the previous post but still fits. And in this case I'm going to jump at the opportunity, not going to let this slip through my fingers. I get more details tonight and if all goes well I'll start my new job October 1!!!!

On the down side I'm a bit reluctant to give my current boss my notice, he's going to be pissed and disapointed. I'm not sure if I feel this way because I've been guilted into it or if I genuinely care that my current boss is going to have a hard time replacing me/filling my position.

The Impossible Dream

Have you ever wished against wishes, hoped against hope? Dreamed about having the impossible?

I‘ve often dreamed or hoped for what seemed like an impossible thing or situation. Knowing that it was highly unlikely to ever come true. A good example would be dreaming you would actually win the lottery, and imagining all that you would and could do with your winnings.

Well what happens when that impossible dream becomes a reality? (I‘m not talking about winning the lottery) Do you jump at it? Hold on tight before it slips away again? Or are you in such shock and disbelief it slips back through your fingers? How do you jump at the chance of something that you never in your wildest dreams thought would/could ever happen?

Councelling Confessions

I started seeing a councellor in July. To help with my stress and anxiety...I‘m not entirely sure its working, but I continue to go.

Lying by ommission. Last week she asked if i was medicated, i replied not yet which is a lie. I‘ve been medicated for a month now. My family doc put me on celexa, a anti depressent that helps with anxiety, though i feel less anxious i was hoping it would be stronger than what it is. I also wonder if the councellor even reads my file, the doc and her both have access to it. (I‘ve also been watching the tv drama Lie to Me on netflix...and think it would be facinating to do what they do study peoples micro expressions...and to be able to fool people).

I dont think this councellor and I are a good fit, shes not very prying. Just kind of takes whatever i say...mind you she could have a different opinion in her “notes“.

Last week we talked about me seeing a psychologist to get a diagnosis. I suspect I have either ADD/ADHD or Asperger‘s....i‘ve questioned this for a couple of years now. Having a label may not really mean anything except being able to explain some of the whys and to zero in on effective coping skills to work on.

Stay tuned for more confessions and progress reports.

New Additions

On impulse I got a new kitten last night. :-/ My former cat hasn't been seen in over two weeks (I suspect she either got caught by the cayotes or has decided to call one of my neighboors barns her new home...but my gut tells me it was the cayotes)...she had been a good mouser and beautiful cat as far as cats go. I'm a dog person. The cat in my home is a working cat, they have the mouser position so I don't have to deal with traps or rodents! ew! They also get to kill any other basement critters like bugs and spiders and like I discovered yesterday living in the litter box, toads!! The dogs are not impressed with their new housemate...Lady wants to eat and play with the kitten, but she's a bit too rough at this point and I'm afraid kitty will scratch her eye or something..and Finnegan doesn't want to go anywhere near the kitty, walking around the perimeter of the room to get by it and onto the safety of my lap (and he's not exactly a lap sized dog). After some much discussed thinking and trying out names the new kitten's name is Pick Elle Star or Pickles. (My friend had her sister, which they named Luna).

I'll post pictures of all the furries that live with me sometime soon :)

Clairvoyancy

Have you ever just known something without being to explain how or why? It could be just gut instinct or that your completely intune with your surroundings. Maybe its something more, something bigger than you ever imagine. Do you listen to that instinct? Or ignore it?
Do different people expirence different clairvoyancies? Or do we all have the ability? 
Have you ever thought about why we choose the friends we keep? Why we like certain family members more than others? How you know when someones boyfriend or girlfriend just isn‘t right for them? And then also how you know they‘re perfect for each other? Does our subconsious actively seek out those will compliment our lives rather than complicate them?